Wednesday, April 25, 2007
View of no surprise // A little test
Emotion/s : A little dissapointed, bored with a hint of tension in the atmosphereCurrent Song : I Do by Rain (Bi)Got back from the new campus, and really, I have nothing to say but I despise the college management (like f**k). Things went messed up during me (and my dad) visit there for the registration and stuffs. After a series of inquiries and questioning, we managed to understand and nonetheless hate the way of the college doing their job. And yes, what kind of management is this?1 - The registration fees aren't fixed yet,2 - The hostel fees aren't fixed, too,3 - The studies, schedules and stuffs haven't been told earlier during my studies at Bangi, and yes, also not fixed until now.4 - Weak management (the receptionists are speechless when we ask critical questions, such "Do we need to pay the whatthemagicker per annum or what?")See, this campus is large, and yes, so as their accomodations/hostels/apartments are miiiiiiiles away and the bus schedules aren't to be trusted. And yes, the internet wasn't included in the "available list" of the utilities. See, I just hate it when we have to walk miiiiiiles for the nearest cyber-cafe. (me : =.=;;)....I wonder what's my darling doing in this moment...playing Super Dance Online maybe. Just pray for her well-being. So missed her...she's not online in MSN Messenger for now. =( I just want to ask her about the plan of our date next week, whether she feels like it. Her birthday is on 4th May, and mine's on the 2nd.Well, if she can't go, I understand. Maybe she's trying to collect more money for our next overnite at the cybercafe. =)Anyway, thx to my dad for the help at the campus.
Monday, April 23, 2007
Nothing but smiles....
Emotions/s : Smile, happy, although a little sad (for leaving hostel)
Current song: Hope of Spring by
K.GardenHaha....silently crept out from house & go to the cyber-cafe in my neighborhood. ^^Thx God she's online....missed her a lot....and yeah, there are also the -RyO- gang also, with Xaxao in abscence.Just moving out from hostel....and yes, currently deciding on where to stay during my studies there.Well, enjoying my chat...
Friday, April 20, 2007
Intermission : A new hope // Interlude of the memories
Emotion/s : A little smile, wondering...and yes, missingCurrent Song : Goodbye by Spice GirlsWell, my last day here in Bangi arrived at last. I'm gonna miss this place, well, although this place isn't my favourite social spot or a good studyplace, I cherish the internet. Why? Because it's the only thing I love most here, and the only link for me to the outside world. I hate to say this, but my place is a crap in general...Since I'm gonna miss the internet, I'll be missing Audition too. I'm gonna miss my Audition clique of -RyO-Miyu, -RyO-Emo, Xaxao, Idah & MuzyHipHop....hahaha....and Nazy too. (me : =P) Thanks for your companionship. Really fun playing with you guys. -RyO- 4ever!! And not to forget my dear -CherryLia- who I cherished most; my beloved darling and a Audition trainer/teacher, hugs & kisses for you. Love you always. I pray for our relationship to last. <3 I'll get my diploma for myself, my parents, my friends, and for you dear, as well. (p/s : Control your anger, remember God always)...and to itsDEJAvu & simplyjen, thx for your advices. Thx for listening to my problems. You guys are just great. Owe you guys a lot. Kudos to you. (^^)\To MENTOL, Jazzlynn, delaine, AngelNg...I'll never forget you guys. Nice game so far, and I enjoy your companion.Haiz...next week, a new chapter to be written, a new adventure to embark. And yes, the final quest (semester d'uh) of the diploma studies...IUCTT, here I come!
Thursday, April 19, 2007
The broken mended // Counting moments
Emotion/s : Nothing but smile and calm feeling...Current Song : You by
Audition (really, I want to know who sings this song)Thx God for helping us out, thx a lot...Hmm...actually it wasn't a big deal. Let's just say it's nothing but a "full moon" problem for girls. (me : =P) Well, that's what my friends said. One thing for sure, she needs anger management programme. I told her, everytime if she feels like wanted to blast-off, go take ablution. Well, it works, really. Trust me. Hope she did what I said. Love her so much...Hmm...time's running out. I'm gonna be moving out from my so-dear hostel to Bandar Sri Damansara apartment with my friends. Next (last) semester will be started next week, also be moving this Monday (I think, maybe earlier...). I'm just hoping that internet line will soon be installed A.S.A.P. Had the budgets cleared out, well, except for the installment. Need to go to the TMNet office and register. The installment will surely takes time but for God's sake WE NEED THE INTERNET!*forcing myself to sleep it's almost 4 am already* (>_<")
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
Fool's Prayer
Emotion/s : Worried, Total sadness, Crying, broken....what else?Current Song : Angel by
Wheesung...Uncanny worries & sad since morning have brought me to a part which i don't want it to happen. It hasn't happen yet really, but I just felt the presence, like waves of pop-ups on my brain's monitor. I cried on what her did today.Oh, God....please help me, I beg for Your mercy. Please save our relationship...bless us with patience in our lives. Give us hope and strength to carry our burdens and pass in every single tests of Yours. I love her so much i don't know why at first, but then I realized what You mean.You wanted me to be thankful, and yes, thank You, Allah, for giving us chance to be together.And I remember Your words saying that "Materials aren't permanent in this world", and yes, I realized, and always remember that. You give, and You take back. I beg for Your forgiveness.But when the time comes for us to depart......O Allah, I'm only human...give me strength to overcome this. I'm feeling so broken. Although my tears' running dry, sooner or later they'll flow again, and that time my wounds will surely open. You, my God, the Almighty, only You who know everything, and I leave the rest on You. I'm Yours, and I let You decide. You always want to give the best to everyone, but it's us who never care....Please save us, please....What else but to cry....I'm such a fool, yes, a fool I am...
Monday, April 16, 2007
Another piece
Emotion/s : Sleepy, wondering, infatuated...Current Song : Tchau Tchau by Deli SpiceAlmost sleeping, since me & my girlfriend is having an ovenite inside t-bun cyber cafe as we had our dose of Audition. Just then another important piece of puzzle have been found...Her parents are unknown. Born part Chinese, part Indian. Adopted by Malay parents, which then becomes a Muslim. Changed mothers for several times. Kinda ignored by her parents. She were wild until now (but now kinda a lil controlled, i think). Being bullied since she was a kid (same like me =/). That's all....for now.She looked fine, but I know, deep inside her heart she's in agonizing sadness. Sounds like she never had feel the love inside a family, real family...and never experienced it. That's what I think. She's kinda secretive for a moment, and I know she's not ready yet. I'll wait, but at the same time I'll try to search deeper and slowly...until truth prevails.Looking at her, sleeping while lying her head on her hands over the table makes me wanted to cry. Pity her a lot. Her life is tough. I wish I could help her much. I love her, and I don't think of leaving her. Somehow I felt responsible...I don't know. I pray for her that hopely she can overcome her problems...Dunno what else to say here. God help her, I beg and plea to you...give us strength to overcome the problems. Clear out her sadness and give her happiness here and thereafter. Lead her to the truth, and help her search for her true self...I can't afford to see a person like her goes worse like those out there...No, not anymore. Can't save everyone, but at least 1 is enough for now. T-T
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Morning blur // thoughts
Emotion/s : Blur, half-conscious nvm...(just woke up ya' noe
-_-")
Current Song : New World by
L'Arc~en~CielNext week's gonna be my last to enjoy Audition...I'm gonna miss the joy of having internet access here in the hostel. The freedom of chatting, playing Audition and stuffs (I'm lame, am I?). There are cyber cafe's but I ought not to go to any although that's the only option so far I got. I have no internet access at home since my parents invests their ringgits for my studies rather than installing the damn-needed access. The reason, easy; My siblings are caesars and not gonna give others chance easily. To be simple, we'll fight who's gonna reign supreme upon the internet (me : ...) and in the end, our parents would do this and that blahblahblah (me : I know that you guys understand)...Even though I'm tolerable enough to talk and give chances still my siblings will continue go overboard.What else? (me : 5 minutes of blurriness) Ok, I have a boring days to catch up and live it up, and yeah, an overnite stay at t-bun cyber cafe, Wangsa Maju with my dear queen this Sunday nite. (me : ^^)
Friday, April 13, 2007
Whoa...
Emotion/s : A potpourri of excitement, sadness, and happiness. (me: =P) Current song : Flying Duck by Cherry Filter1stly I like to announce that I'm moving from my msn space to this site. My former site: http://fallenelvenangel.spaces.msn.com Feel free to visit (it's nothing, really...)Waaa.....seems that next week's gonna be my last week at my hostel, here in Bangi before I'm moving to Bandar Sri Damansara, my new campus. Bleargh i hate moving there...><"Hmm....what else? For the upcoming final semester, I've got my crews ready for my final project. Seriously graphic desiger isn't really my thing, so what I'm gonna do is to hire some friends to finish up my works and I pay them (me: Mwahaha!! I'm t3h ebill!!! XD) Well, after the several months of "holiday" after failed the semester 5 and the English Intensive class coming up next (the fact is clear enough =P).Once arrived at the new campus;1 - Find a cyber-cafe (next option is to install the internet service at my apartment)2 - Play AuditionSEA! XDXDXD3 - Study, stuffs blahblahblah...But thinking back of what my darling say...I think I'm gonna do my best here & cut-off the Audition hours...(well, depends on the situation d'uh!)Crap, crap, crap...
