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Thursday, January 31, 2008
Last night's guilt

Emotion/s: Blurry, tired, a lil guilty...

Current Song: You and Me by Lifehouse

Just woke up. Class at 10 am today, and might finish at 4 pm. Thank God for maths didn't appear on Thursday. Well....I don't know what to do. Blurry head... hahahaha!

After what happened last night, I felt like... I don't know. I was just too tired even for sending messages but still sending them to her. Haha! What la me.... Anyway I don't care because I used my last ounces of strength left to send her sms even though I already started sleeping. Christine, I'll reply, yes, but don't expect me to reply that fast. Even I got stuffs to be done like assignments and stuffs. All I just wanted from you to believe me, and don't you worry! I'm not a person that like to flirt another women while my heart actually still beating for you! Haha...(Sry, I know you'll kill me for this post) XD

Anyway, I just stated here that I wanna say sorry about last night. I was really damn tired and cannot help myself. And you too, I know how much you needed my company but you shouldn't press yourself too hard. Sleep if you must and rest you must be everytime you started to get tired. Hard for me not to care about you. Hahaha! Just don't emo too much okays? Plus after this I'll be having tones of assignments since I'm studying for the last semester.

Well then, if you still angry at me, fine... release your tension. Hate to see you feeling uncomfortable especially because of me. Once again I'm telling you that I'm sorry for everything. Please forgive me. =(

*off to bath & class*


Wednesday, January 30, 2008
Of randomness and gashaphon

Emotion/s: Feeling fine...

Current Song: 1973 by James Blunt

Maths class is an absolute boredom like always. Class equals to an asylum filled with silent patients listening to some sort of sound therapy. You can imagine how do I feel back then. But then thank goodness today got only one class like yesterday.

Woke up early around 7.10 am, then went straight for the PC. Ironically, my brain went so random & got myself online in High Street 5. After a game or two I logged off and continue my sleep. Hahahaha....silly me.

Thought of visiting Jusco again wif my housemates. All of sudden I'm having a feeling to buy myself a gashaphon... I yield to the cuteness and the fever of buying gashaphon. Nooooooo!!!!!


Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Of last night's issue

Emotion/s: Content, blurry (just woke up) & quite happy

Current Song: You Were Meant for Me by Jewel

Last night an odd confession occured while I was chatting with her. Silly me, but I've learnt my lesson before and soon then I had to do it before my unmended heart went any worst...

Anyway, things went on just fine. She's a darn good friend to me, keeping me company and make me feel content these days. Feeling like I've totally forgotten what was happened last night. Anyway, I've learn something that haven't experienced it for a long time:

"Truth hurts, but to lie is even worst"

A good girl like girl deserved to get someone better, and if she does, I'll be the 1st person to be happy. =D

....'nuff said. It's a topic that I hate to talk about.

But anyway...today's class cancelled. Had myself a good night's sleep since I sleep earlier last night, around 2 am.

p/s: Chrissy, you don't need to worry about me. I've already getting over this matter and fine with it. You were right about yesterday, and when you told me your answer, I have nothing to say but to agree. Things aren't easy, isn't it? But well, I, too, rather us being this way. But anyway I'm willing to share your problem every single moment, everyday. You're a hard-to-find good friend to me, and may that remain always. =) Don't be sad and worried about last night's issue. If you do I'll worry to. Haha! Let's have enough of that, shall we? And let things remain as merry as our joy in the High Street 5.


Monday, January 28, 2008
Dangdut // Today's random

Emotion/s: Content, smiling, and not to mention, tired...

Current Song: Ice-Cream by MC Mong

Christine, the song above is for you <33

Ahh...randomly, I downloaded dangdut songs as the first thing after I woke up this morning. Seriously, I don't know what I was thinking. ^^;;

I was late on attending the maths class. My roommate was too tired to wake up so i decided to go alone by cab. My other housemates went by motorbike so i didn't get a chance. Stuck in traffic jam for almost 1/2 hour. The cab fees went double. @_@

...good thing was that I made it to the class.

After the whole day's classes is over, I went to Kompleks Desa with my roommate, accompanying him buying games dvd. later then we went for a shot at arcade. Soon after that, we headed back home. Bought maggi and supplies before going upstairs (riding elevator lol) to 14th floor, where our lair of evil lies. Muahaha...

...and sorry, Chrissy for being so late. Not meant to break your heart lol. >.<

Hahaha... anyway, MC Mong's Ice-Cream song is definitely t3h luv <33 Can't have enough of that song. Ironically, that makes me thinking of her as well. XD;;

But nevermind that... High Street 5 rock my days ahead. XD

Hard to find such person like you, Chrissy... I like you a lot. ^^


Sunday, January 27, 2008
Of a new friend named Chrissy...

Emotion/s: Groggy, tired, and yet smiling...

Current Song: Shen Qi by Stefanie Sun Yan Zhi

Lol... since I get to know Chrissy, my life is well, changed a lil bit interesting. Haha... :-)

She made me drain my top-up credits talking stuffs, get to know each other etc (same like me here)... But really, making new friends is fun. It's only for merely 3 days then we started to miss each other (in-game context la...). Group dancing to me...will be empty without her presence. Plus, today I get to know her brother, Metallic. Nice to have another friend...

Well, she & my housemate (roommate, to be precise) have similiarity in their gaming-genre pattern. Both of them like 1st-person-shooter tactical like of those Hitman, Metal Gear Solid etc. Wow! Didn't know girls like her love those games. Anyway, she's a gamer like me, like us. Only that she got PS2, but I don't have one. Haha.... ^^

...and yeah, she reads novel. I like that. ;-)

Well, honestly I don't want to know what actually playing in my/her/our minds but I think having her as a friend is worthwhile. Can't afford to lose a person like her. She can actually make me smile and laugh all day. Hahahaha!! Where else to find a person especially a girl who actually got a lot in common & become our friend? Sure can geng lah.


Thursday, January 24, 2008
Of Cloverfield and newfound friends

Emotion/s: Normal...

Current Song: Makes Me Wonder by Maroon 5




Okay... CLOVERFIELD ROCKS!

Yesterday me & my friends have been watching this movie... all we can say it's darn thrilling, and so far I must say that this is the finest monster-based movie I've ever watched. I could feel the fear in the atmosphere and also feel the emotions of the characters... not to mention the pain. "AAAAAARRRGGHHH...IT'S PAINFUL DAMMIT!"

....and I was still shaking even after we left the cinema. All of them say "Fuyoh! Dahsyat siot!"

...'nuff said.

Last night me & my housemates made new friends from High Street 5 named Chrissy & Elvio. We met during a group dancing session back in Paramount. They're nice people and having them around is fun. Hopefully this newborn friendship lasts...

*hops to the game*


Monday, January 21, 2008
Randomness // "First" class

Emotion/s: Normal, a lil feverish...

Current Song: Love, Love, Love by Jolin Tsai

Class will be started on 8 am today I guess....since I don't know whereabouts of the schedule whatsoever. Those who supposed to inform us about the timetable also went MIA. Darn u people... Anyway, I'll be coming to the college and ask for it...and to bash up some people. Muahaha...kidding. XD

Getting high on High Street 5. Seriously....and I had to fight that intense feeling which I don't want to face it anymore. Plus, I'm having a slight fever. Don't get me wrong. It's not the emotional fever but the real fever instead. Guess I need 2 have a couple of panadols and a rest.

Boredom kills, but what else can I do here? Haiz.... -_-;;


Saturday, January 19, 2008
Randomness of Sogo & HS5

Emotion/s: Bored, A lil dissapointed, longing...short smile

Current Song: Fable by Angela Zhang

High Street 5 is definately t3h luv at the moment...

The Open-Beta has started yesterday, and good in-game stuffs awaits for those who managed to online 4 to 6 hours.

...and yes, they're giving away promo DVDs for those who order via sms, and inside that got free points to buy permanent stuffs (not the 30 days validation etc...). XD

Sounds so ghei....and my apartment at Kepong is like High Street 5 sanctuary, since almost all the residents play the game...

...and we planned to name our future guild "OrderOf69" XD More noise, more chaos, less dancing...and even more so-called irritating circus.

Hahaha....XD

Oh yeah...during the day I went to Sogo with those guys, 'nuff said...

One couldn't come because she was too tired, okay...The Sky got emergency because her sis asked her stuffs to buy/repair phone (something like that)...

....and the one I care also went off because wanted to meet the tired Zymz and Naoko back to Kelana Jaya. Okay then, let her pass.... D<

I was thinking about spending time with her but then things happened. I'm a lil dissapointed, frustrated and hints of anger...but then I try surpassed those by having my dose of ParaPara and Initial D, but things went awry. My scores went down like hell and I couldn't concentrate. I ain't talking much back then till the time I pamper the keyboard at home, playing High Street 5 with my fellow housemates.

'nuff said...-_-


Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Morning rage // Afternoon meeting

Emotion/s: A lil bit of tension...blurry

Current Song: I'm With You by Avril Lavigne

Aaaaaarrrggghhhh.....lost my mood to continue my sleep already. Mom called and yapped about switching off the PC and random stuffs concerning the apartment I'm living in.

...'nuff said, crap talk. Talking to me like I'm a 10 years old kid to do this and that, not to forget the silly reminders like turn off the fan when nobody's around etc etc....

Going to meet Izumi, Skypegasus and Zymz at Sogo today in around 1 pm. ^^

Just hoping & praying that my parents won't be around for today or else I'll be done for.

Skypegasus offered me a part for the cosplay skit this upcoming GACC 2008 for her team. I so cannot & don't want to push the luck away. I'm gonna be joining her.... and I hope dad gonna give me green light to go join them this year. ^^


Monday, January 14, 2008
Defeated heart // Lame expressions

Emotion/s: A lil bit tensed up, despair, confused, missing that someone...

Current Song: Stay by Victoria

Hate it when my feelings all up against me...I just don't know how to describe it, but seriously it tears me apart, every single day, every single moment, every second when I play that game that is similar to my once favourite, AuditionSEA.

The feeling gets more intense when I saw her inside the game. I was hesitated to play since I was feeling a lil like don't have the moods but somehow I play due to my friends' persuasion. Hahaha... D=

I used to somewhat like...hating that person. Not hate as in it shows that she's some kind of bitch or something; but more like leaving me behind, ignoring me but goes for playing those online games instead. But at the same time...

...I still have a heart for her. One part of me misses her so much that I could cry everytime those memories came back haunting during unwanted hours, nay, everytime. Almost every single second.

Honestly saying that...I miss her so dearly, so bad. I'm not hating her. I don't hate her at all. I just want her to be more caring and chances to communicate and knowing her more, rather than just playing games. Yes, I do enjoy having her as company during gaming session, like I could almost smile everytime when she's on (except when her "moods" went on).

Needless to say, and plainly said; I still love her. Yes, I loved her till now. Only now that I put down the feelings here right into this blog and sputter all over with my despair and silent screams that came all down from the very heart of mine.

Was it just me that couldn't understand her? Or was that her that ignores me and lies on purpose and make that game as her love instead, or perhaps I'm just a spare-part? Guess that both of us lacked in almost everything. Yes, we do, and we did...The answers? Allah knows...

Oh, Allah....please give me strength to overcome this...and guide me through the bleakness of my heart.

I don't know what else to be said here. As a conclusion, I'm gonna make it this way;

Anis, if you read this, I know it's hard for you, yes, hard for me also to express this feeling since you already cannot accept me as your loving prince anymore. Even harder for me to say this because it'll bleed me silently, deep inside my heart. But if you already have someone else on your side, fine...

...I'll leave as if you wish to. Hopefully that guy can make you feel content and happy.

But if you still have a heart for me, then let us be together again, if you wish to. Because I want you to know, that I still have a heart for you, and I wished us to be better and even more loving than we used to.

But if you insisted to stay single, fine then. It's your decision and you're the one that holds and decide your future. All I wanted is for you to be strong and happy always. I pray that you can endure all the unwanted that came to your life.

My tears already dried up for all these...but who knows? These tears could be shed again, and never these tears shed like crocodile's. These and those tears came from a puny soul cried in pain.

It's painful to me, and it's excruciating....but it's the post that must be done in all costs. I don't care to be called a weak person etc. But if then, just call this post just a plain, lame expression from an unknown, wandering person looking for someone he don't even know who.


Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Back to Kepong // KL 1/2 Bottle

Emotion/s: A lil bit relieved, bored...

Current Song: In Your Mind by Kajiura Yuki

Back at last... in Kepong. After 3 weeks chained at home doing everyday chores and absolute boredom, now I'm back. Semester 6 is on...

Last Saturday I went to Sg. Wang...and lo! Behold the almost-empty-than-everyday-supposed-to-be-scenery-of-the-usual-Kuala Lumpur!!!! From Chow Kit Road to Sg. Wang....things became almost 50% less; cars, people, shops... I wonder what really happened back then. Traffic went really smooth. I looked outside from the bus's window and watched things around. Chow Kit Road was really like...well, beyond the usual. There was supposed to be a lot of people bustling around but then even some of the arcades were closed. Not to mention the people...

Things went the same for Jalan Tunku Abdul Rahman... and to Kota Raya & Central Market area as well. Well, seriously I've been thinking... if it's about the public demonstration about the HINDRAF thingy, I think it's really that ridiculous... The thing's settled already. Even if it's not, at least it's been slowed down. (me: Haven't updated myself much hehe... ^^;;)

But at least I 7 my friend arrived Sg. Wang sooner than expected. ^^ Things became really smooth.

I just wished that after all this diploma crap I'll just gonna get myself a generous amount of bucks & get myself a home away from my family. Can't stand becoming a maintainance droid though... Being the black sheep of the family is really hard & annoying...

Oh, well....

*sleeps*


♠/MY Green Personalities
Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)


♣/ The Green Hobbies
Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.



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