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Friday, March 28, 2008
Days ago...

Emotion/s: Tired, sleepy, bored...

Current Song: Kuroi Namida by Tsuchiya Anna

Seriously, I have no doubt that this song never made me feel bored. A great song from Nana the anime. ^^

Met Chrissy that Tuesday at her Taman Melawati MIA campus while she was shop for her stuffs; boards, paints, drawing pen, and some other graphic stuffs. Anyway that day we both agreed to drop by my house there at Kepong, and it was her first visit.

... and for some reason of becoming a lil unaware or I was confused by the newly adjusted road, our journey has been longer than expected. Sorry, blame the road-builder. *gets shot*

We came, and she experienced my so-called a house since we all never really staying clean for long... and came to my room, complimenting for the good cool & fresh feeling on staying at 14th floor of the apartment. Glad to hear that, but really, the room can be really stuffy at times, even though the fan is blasting full.

She came by to take out some stuffs from my PC; her songs, artworks... and even playing Cabal for a while. Since it's a short visit and needs to be getting out early, it's just a really short time and we just wish to stay longer and had our talks and laughs, and let her explore my song archives inside my PC. Gave her my renowned and treasured, autographed Ben's comic, Emotion. Glad she likes it. :)

...and Padil wasn't around, she didn't like it. Haha! Hopefully he'll be around when she visits again. Mubarak & Padil hasn't had a chance to meet her that day so next time hopefully we all can meet and have fun together. ^^

Later then around 5 pm we're out, bought take-away food from McDonalds, and escorts her back to MIA. Needed to show her the way back.

...

...I'm so darn tired. Getting tired and sleepy these days. =.=;;

Nothing much happened these days; holidays till 7th April. All the way gaming around, and I think I was loafing around more than gaming. Rappelz and High Street 5 have been a staple for us here in our in-house residence. Haha!

... and Rappelz is phenomenal. Almost the same like Lineage II, only that Rappelz is free for life. Great gameplay, stunning graphics, nice background music. What else could we all ask for? Leaving Cabal for a while. ^^;;

Get my resume done. The practical months are just around the corner.

...'nuff said.


Monday, March 24, 2008
Of ACGC 2008 & handphone issue

Emotion/s: Normal, tired...

Current Song: 1973 by James Blunt

Addicted to this song <33

Saturday & Sunday I went to ACGC 2008 at Times Square. By invitation of my friends, I joined them in Call Of Duty 4: Modern Warfare tournament. We missed the 1st day registration and ended up nothing. Met Chrissy and her friend, Jen for awhile there on Saturday. Couldn't stay long in one place since I must follow my crew, and for my dear friend Faiz, sorry for couldn't meet you back then. I was following their lead since I'm not a person who declines invitation, and also forgive me for couldn't send you messages because my credits almost ran out. :(

... and I couldn't greet my other fellow cosplay friends and others properly since I was in rush meeting people. I felt like a runaway guy or some murder suspect, or maybe a man who supervise all workers alone. @_@

Sunday. Went there early for around 8 am and arrived before 9 am. The shops were still closed, an only noticed some janitors cleaning the floor and ACGC crews loafing around before starting their works. We we're there, playing pairs and black jack while waiting for the event to start. Soon when the COD 4 booth opened, we registered and take turns on the schedules. Since the game is Free For All scheme, we all decided to play each person per schedule, means that we won't fight teammates. My time was in 3.50 pm. I was losing really bad. Those guys were good, and I played that game for only less than 5 times. But anyway it's my 1st experience competing in a tournament.

... and yeah, GOODIE BAGS from CabalSEA!! XD

Anyway, I was called back home in around 4-5 pm, and I went back without them by trains and bus...

Haha! Time for me to sleep... and yeah, I was so lazy to bring a camera & take pictures. Not in the mood really. :\


Friday, March 21, 2008
Of High Street and ACGC 2008

Emotion/s: Blurry, a lil bit sleepy...

Current Song: Say It Right by Nelly Furtado

Oh boy... I'm so sleep deprived lol even though I was sleeping around 4 am. *whacked self* Funny when I found out that I've spent my night foruming in High Street 5 forum, and working so hard editing screenshots for the competition. Well, at first I thought it was me, but then Padil went high due to sleep deprivation and also an effect from drinking his favourite instant coffee. Hehehe...

...and yes, our screenshots are so darn much better than our previous assignments. Trust me. They'll be a hit soon (probably la...). ^^;;

Bought a cheap point sleeveless shirt inside High Street 5. Lol it's the same shirt which Padil bought, and it fits perfectly on my character. Makes me and him looked like some gay duo. XD

Well, should've been back home for today, yes, but then I'll be home late. Actually, dear Chrissy planned to come by to my apartment but she had to cancel the trip since she got trouble concerning our relationship's safety. She told me that her mom was like suspected something so better for us to lay low. Pity her a lot. :(

... and I missed her even more like she did until now. T_T

I checked the forum today and found out that the forum has spam problem. The numbers of users logging in kept on coming and gets bigger by time. The moderators was like "Wow! It's a record!" but I don't have that in mind. In fact, most probably the forum has been infected by some malware or something. Anyway hopefully the moderators will do something to solve this problem.

Anyway, still I will stay and get back home late even though she can't come. I still have things to do though. Later need to meet my friends to practice playing Call of Duty 4 for the tournament tomorrow on ACGC 2008 event at Times Square. I'll be teaming up with my fellow friends who have joined WCG before this time. Glad to fight alongside my ex-classmates and good friends again.

I love you, dear Chrissy... <33


Monday, March 17, 2008
Review of PSP Competition

Emotion/s: Normal, tired a bit...

Current Song: Be My Lover by La Bouche

Last weekend I went to The Curve at Damansara attending the Sony PSP competition. The event was okay, and I had my chance to play Juiced 2 via PSP console. The game was cool though. I just wished that I have my very own PSP someday. Went there with my best-est buddy, Aiman for the whole weekend, and accompanying him shopping PS stuffs also, which ended up buying nothing.

On Sunday, I met Chrissy and her friends there. Haha! Long time didn't see her. =) Missed her a lot already. Unfortunately, our meeting wasn't long, plus my friend was in a hurry to go back to Kuantan since the next day he'll having his class back.

...and congratulations to Chrissy's brother, Metallic for winning the 2nd prize of Sony Bravia LCD TV and a Sony PSP. ^^

...and as for the High Street 5 event at Sogo's Red Box karaoke, I didn't present myself there. So much of meeting my friend-cum-next-employer there. Haha! Maybe next time we'll meet, hopefully....

LOL no class till 7th April Weeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Because today got class but then hours after that we got message that we're having another week of holiday ROFL

Love you, Chrissy <33


Friday, March 14, 2008
A tune from the bleeding heart

Emotion/s: Hurt...

Current Song: You Were Meant For Me by Jewel

You Were Meant For Me

I hear the clock, its six a.m.
I feel so far away from where Ive been
I got my eggs, I got my pancakes too
Got my maple syrup, everything but you
I break the yolks and make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off of the mirror, don't leave the keys in the door
I never put wet towels on the floor anymore cause

Dreams last so long, even after you're gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you

I called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
So picked up a paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie it just wasn't the same
cause it was happy and I was sad and
It made me miss you oh so bad cause

Dreams last so long, even after you're gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you

I go about my business, I'm doing fine
Besides, what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken every day

I brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick up a book and turn the sheets down and then
Take a deep breath and a good look around

Put on my pj's and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I, I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight cause

Dreams last so long, even after you're gone
I know, that you love me and soon you will see
You were meant for me and I was meant for you
Yeah, you were meant for me and I was meant for you

I'm bleeding badly now... but it'll soon recover by itself.

'nuff said.




Fever and events

Emotion/s: Smiling, sick, tired...

Current Song:Di Persimpangan Dilema by Nora

This song is <33

Having fever because of cold temperature. Need to drink a lot of water. Wore my sweaters, pants and shorts. Had panadol as medicine. Well, I don't need much because I'll heal soon. Thanks Chrissy for being so caring & made me remember last time when I was sick back then. :) Love you so much.

Anyway, need to wake her up on 7.50 am, which is only a few hours left. Friday comes with my routine of lunch then prayers at the mosque, then visit my best friends before heading home and having my nap. Haha! Hopefully dad will pick me up as always. I don't want to waste my money on public transport. :(

This Sunday will be having Padil's sister's wedding ceremony at Sungai Buloh. Hopefully I can go visit there again. Missed his mom's cooking. :D Then again, High Street 5 held an event at Sogo's 8th floor (my port: arcade XD), located at Red Box Karaoke. It's an event not to be missed for me, since it's quite near. =) Plus, it'll be a fortune meeting other players there. =) Oh, Chrissy wish that you could come also... :(

Alrite! Since I'm having fever now, it's best for me to sleep now. Plus, I need to wake her up soon.

Love you, dear Chrissy. <33


Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Of new chance and SPM result

Emotion/s: Normal, a lil happy, still misses that someone...

Current Song: Hello by Evanescence

Hours back then I've found a High Street 5 player, a photographer-cum-talent manager at an advertising agency. Fated to meet today, the meeting brought a new hope for us here. She needed me, Padil & Zapril to put under her during our practical. The good things are we got a good place for the practical, and the place isn't really far from Kepong, which is just located at old uptown Damansara. :)

... and she needs some workers too. XD

It needs more commitment when it comes to such a good job as a price. Hahaha! Hmm... but hopefully it'll come true since we're having difficulties when it comes to finding companies for us to monitor our practical course. She wanted us to give her resume and stuffs after we finished study.

...and we don't even need 2 move away from our current home. Even if we do, we'll find one nearby . =)

Chrissy, congrats for the SPM result. XD I know you'll pass. :) Next time remind me to pay for your sushi, but dun ask for the impossible. >.<

Missed you so much... :(


Monday, March 10, 2008
The last day // Interlude of the same old beginning

Emotion/s: A lil bit of missing feeling, sad but tearless, brokenhearted... and a lil blurry (or should I say, lost), in the midst of emotional jam.

Current Song: Always by Bon Jovi

Yesterday was the day she announced that we're over, and it happened during my way back to Kepong inside a cab. For such a short relationship... things were quite meaningful for me, no, for both of us. I was actually like speechless when I received those messages she sent me, but not without a uncanny sinking feeling deep down. I was worried.

But then before all those things I've prepared myself for the unwanted, and I expected myself to be truly okay and lead things back to normal. But then silently it gave me impact deep inside my very heart. I was almost cried when I read those messages, but then I realized that my tears already dried all the way before, which I spent for her, for my stupid self...

... and I've never learned, I think. Think that I deserved this. But then, better for us to be this way. So that I'll never break her heart anymore. I'm not good enough for her anyway. Nah... I won't blame a single thing on people but myself. Yes, I was unaware of things and stuffs, of being not sensitive etc...

My flaws are real bad, too heavy a burden like this being carried by me or her, or my friends. Yes, right now I missed her real bad, and actually can cry any moment... but then numbness took over me, making me couldn't feel those feelings. Feelings of sad, lonesome....

...to feel like a normal human being again. Too much sorry has been said... and I'm feeling so powerless, unable to do anything but to see things go round and pass by.

She said that God told her that she should leave me... and for her saying like that, there's nothing I can say but to accept the truth. She's a Godly person, and I was used to be one, only now I'm more like a mere shadow of myself.

But then, Chrissy, I just pray that you'll get a better boyfriend soon. But if then the boyfriend didn't do any good, he'll get a piece from me soon.

Anyway, let this be a lesson for me... think that I'll forever learn the hard way if I don't change myself now. Nah....

...and I'm gonna missed those times. I'll cry myself bad for those.

...better being single for years than being broken all time. Maybe I should stop being nice after all. Chrissy will be the last, hopefully...

Negativity suits me well right now. :) Think that I had enough of peer pressures, I decided not to give my heart to anyone else after this. Hopefully after I reset back my jammed feelings, things will be back to normal, hopefully... *give support la guys*

Even though we're not together anymore, dear Chrissy, I'll take care of you as my dear close friend of mine.


Friday, March 07, 2008
Tales From Earthsea // Chrissy's License


Emotion/s: Weary, tired but happy :)

Current Song: More Than That by Backstreet Boys

Tales From Earthsea is a nice story by Studio Ghibli, based on a novel by Ursula K. Le Guin. Seriously the story is darn nice you should watch. ;) If you people out there love Spirited Away, you should love this one too.

Today I'll be heading back home and will be back this Sunday. Next week another holiday week, but painful since I need to pour away my money for the bills =(. If not, no more internet and total blackout. Die la if like this...

Anyway, my beloved Chrissy has passed her driving test today early this morning. Thank goodness you passed. *hugs & kisses* I'm happy when hearing that good news. Lol still sleepy even though by sleeping early last night. Felt like total sloth. Most probably I'm gonna fall asleep during the sermons. LOL

Anyway, I love my dear Chrissy very much <33


Thursday, March 06, 2008
Power-cut notice // Review of Cabal

Emotion/s: Normal, a lil upset anxious...

Current Song: An Angel by Declan Galbraith

Whoa.... This song is dreamy. I love it. <33

Nothing much for today. My Force Blader is now in level 18, and won my 1st PvP after 4 consecutive loss against Chrissy and Mubarak. ^^ Right now my character is rather balanced and able to live well. Haha! Not that it's strong, but it's, well... balanced. =)

No money for today. @_@ Tomorrow I'll be back home and will be coming back on Sunday. Next week holiday again. XD But then I have to gave all I have to the electric bills to avoid being cut-off powerless. Blame TNB for not giving the bills for 1-2 months before. Now that we all need to face blackout soon if we don't settle it fast... which tomorrow is the dateline. -_-;;

Darn it... just today when we were checking the mailbox, the friggin' notice was inside! Seriously, for now there's nothing we can do but to pour off our cash tomorrow, only that I'll gave them my money next week for paying for my part tomorrow.

...'nuff said.

p/s: Love Chrissy very much. <33


Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Of Low Yat and CabalSEA

Emotion/s: Normal

Current Song: Don't Stop Movin' by S Club 7

Last 2 days before I went to Low Yat Plaza, helping a friend finding a good place for him to send his broken laptop to be repaired. Another friend of ours went there to buy PC stuffs & accessories. Then came Mubarak following us. The laptop guy I brought him to a action model shop nearby and got seduced by cheap Gundam model kits. At first he was tried to resist but after a while inside there, he bought a 1/100 model kit of Gundam Virtue + Nadleeh, priced RM149. Whoa... At last his mission of repairing his laptop ended up of buying a model.

....then we went to Times Square being gh3y over doses of arcade games. XD

But today, we went again, only that we're consist of me, him & Padil. We were there for a short while only. After we walked around the floors, we chose a random shop then give the people there to repair. From the damage, the shopkeeper told us that the repair price was RM750. It's a standard price since the whole building sells the same price (from what we've observed). So we tried dealing with the shop owner and he said the price is final. But the assistant was being nice, actually but putting in the receipt there deposit of Rm350, and the other rest was Rm300 of the next payment.

We then went back to the KL Monorail when suddenly our friend had a call from the shop. They said that his laptop was repaired. Me & Padil went off first as he went back to Low Yat Plaza. After we arrived at KL Sentral, our friend called asking us to stay at the station while he coming. Soon after he came, we all went home together.

Cabal Online rawks! Being a slow-levelling Force Blader is truly worthwhile. Even though it's slow when it comes to levelling, but it's power is reasonably strong enough, made it balance on it's way.

As for Chrissy, she chose to be the Wizard. Her attack is powerful enough. Just afraid if my defence could withstand her attacks when it comes to PvP. Plus, her level is way higher. @_@

Anyway, I love her so much. <33


Monday, March 03, 2008
Today's outing & movie


Emotion/s: Deliriously gay, had fun, hearty, loving, smile.... and quite upset

Current Song: My Soul For You by Fire Bomber

Get myself being shot by Chrissy for not giving her the right order on going to Midvalley. *boom!*

Redline RAWKS!!!! Mercedez Benz SLR, Ferrari Enzo, Lamborghini Murcielago.... WOOHOO!!! Darn crazy street races, drags... cool set of unaffordable supercars, and not to mention some funny plots concerning the 100 million dollars bet. XD Seriously, I think I wanna watch this for a 2nd time.

Back then I was eating miso ramen while dear Chrissy & Sherlyn had teppanyaki for lunch. Darn silly me having lunch on 10-15 minutes before the movie really starts. Anyway, nice outing but since we lack of people like Padil & Mark, we pity Sherlyn for being alone. :( For the movie, I bought couple seats for me & my love while she brought a middle seat ticket for Sherlyn. :)

Lol after the movie, I went gay playing 1 round of ParaPara and Initial D. We saw some other Chinese dudes danced a lot gayer in a hard mode... and I'm having trouble of picking it up. XD

Soon after that, we bought refreshments from McD and we went into the large pet shop store inside the mall. Cute mice, cats, dogs... Weeeeeeeeee~~~~~

...then got this dog pooped,a nd the smell goes around 2-3 meter radius. Bleargh! But anyway, those dogs are cute! I like the Lion-Dog Aaaaaarrrgghhhh!!!

Inside MPH Bookstore, we found some great graphic design books. Wish I could bought 'em. Not to mention, I'm so novel-deprived that I could like stealing away those books. Thank goodness the alarm was on. ^^;;

Anyway, around 5-6 pm we left. Nice outing indeed.

p/s: Thanks Sherlyn for the gift. =) I owe you 1. >.<;;

...and to beloved Chrissy, I'm longing to be with you again. I wanted you to be in my arms again. Love you. <33


Random high

Emotion/s: A lil guilt, normal, sleepy....

Current Song: Love is in Danger by Priscilla

I'm uber high with Initial D songs. Eurobeat songs RAWKS!

I won't post much, just wanna say that I'm sorry, Chrissy for being really stupid and stuffs. Just afraid that my flaws would be like too much for you. Sorry again. Oh ya....it's almost 4 am and I haven't sleep yet. Haha! Guess in the morning I'll become a half-zombie during the meeting LOL!

Lalala~

Darn! Too sleepy to continue. >_<"

*hops to bed*


Sunday, March 02, 2008
Of yesterday, today and tomorrow...

Emotion/s: Gay, normal, sleepy, tired...

Current Song: Ash Like Snow by The Brilliant Green

Just got back from Gombak... tired after waiting so long for the train to arrive. Sogo got sale and I went in for a dose or two of Initial D & ParaPara. The long wait came after that.

Inside the train my head wanked out, eyes spinning... and now I'm here, blogging. Muahahaha!!!

Sherlyn, you went to GACC.... AAAARRRGGGHHH I WANNA GO THERE!!!! T_T

...and I so wanna meet Masakazu Morita (Voice actor of Bleach's Kurosaki Ichigo & Gundam Seed Destiny's Auel Neider). Darn it.... but nevermind. Guess I'm gonna choke her tomorrow at Midvalley. XD

...and yeah, Izumi & Skypegasus, congratulations for the skit. You've won and deserved that. Such a gay skit deserves a great applause. But then I think I'll be afraid to meet you guys because I could be killed by you all for not joining the skit. >.<

Anyway, such good tidings makes me smile. =)

Tomorrow me, Chrissy, Sherlyn & some people (I think...) will go to Midvalley. Me and Chrissy will go for a movie. Most probably gonna watch Redline. ^^

Okays~ *hops to bed*

p/s: Chrissy, thanks for those msges. I felt touched by your words. Love you. <33


♠/MY Green Personalities
Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)


♣/ The Green Hobbies
Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.



♠/Green Melodies


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