Friday, August 24, 2007
Departing of the founder // The funeral
Emotion/s: Another sad day...
Current Song: Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton
Today, Rylands's funeral will be held at Penang. A convoy of some IRCfiesta members will go there, paying our last respects and condolences to the dead and his families. Last night the IRCfiesta members gathered at DMJewelle's house, discussing about the today's trip to Penang and having a dinner for the next meeting, which the date and place is unconfirmed yet.
As for me, today I can't go to the funeral since I have my class today, and my parents don't allow me to go to Penang as well.
We're gonna miss you, Rylands...
Current Song: Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton
Today, Rylands's funeral will be held at Penang. A convoy of some IRCfiesta members will go there, paying our last respects and condolences to the dead and his families. Last night the IRCfiesta members gathered at DMJewelle's house, discussing about the today's trip to Penang and having a dinner for the next meeting, which the date and place is unconfirmed yet.
As for me, today I can't go to the funeral since I have my class today, and my parents don't allow me to go to Penang as well.
We're gonna miss you, Rylands...
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Departing of the founder // Last respect to a friend
Emotion/s: Sad...
Current Song: Pain by Rungran
Today witnessed the loss of our dearest friend, a commitee of Comic Fiesta, the founder of the IRCfiesta, Rylands. He passed away in the afternoon. We felt really sad since last night when we was told that his kidneys and liver failed to work...
...and we didnt expect this to be soon...
May he rest in peace...T-T
Current Song: Pain by Rungran
Today witnessed the loss of our dearest friend, a commitee of Comic Fiesta, the founder of the IRCfiesta, Rylands. He passed away in the afternoon. We felt really sad since last night when we was told that his kidneys and liver failed to work...
...and we didnt expect this to be soon...
May he rest in peace...T-T
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
We were so close together // Intermission
Emotion/s: A little remorse and somehow sad...
Current Song: Annani Isshodattanoni by See-Saw
Lyrics from the current song I'm listening...
anna ni issho datta no ni
yuugure wa mou chigau iro
arifureta yasashisa wa kimi wo toozakeru dake
tsumetaku kirisuteta kokoro wa samayou bakari
sonna kakkowarusa ga ikiru to iu koto nara
samuzora no shita me wo tojite iyou
anna ni issho datta no ni
kotoba hitotsu tooranai kasoku shiteiku senaka ni ima wa
anna ni issho datta no ni yuugure wa mou chigau iro
semete kono tsukiakari no shita de
shizuka na nemuri wo
unmei to umaku tsukiatte iku nara kitto
kanashii toka sabishii nante itte rarenai
nando mo tsunagatta kotoba wo muryoku ni shite mo
taikutsu na yoru wo tsubushitainda ne
anna ni issho datta no ni
fuzoroi na futari ni ima tadoritsukeru basho nado nainda
anna ni issho datta no ni
hajimete au yokogao ni fushigi na kurai ni miserareteru tomadou kurai ni
kokoro wa doko ni iru? doko ni fukarete iru? sono hitomi ga mayowanu you ni
anna ni issho datta no ni
kotoba hitotsu tooranai ugoki hajimeta kimi no jounetsu
anna ni issho datta no ni
yuugure wa mou chigau iro semete kono tsukiakari no shita de shizuka na nemuri wo
Translation...
We were so close together,
but the twilight has a different color now.
The abundance of kindness only keeps a distance between us.
Our coldly ignored hearts are wandering in the midst.
If this awkwardness is what it's like to live,
we shall close our eyes under the cold sky.
Even though we were so close together,
We can't even get a word across between our increasing distances.
Even though we were so close together, the twilight has a different color now.
Please, give us a quiet sleep under the moon light, if it is the last thing possible.
If you are going to cope with fate,
you can't go on saying you are sad or lonely.
Even if it means to break the links of words we have made together,
you would still want to say goodbye to the dull nights.
Even though they were so close together,
the unmatched couple have no place they can reach.
Even though we were so close together, in a glimpse of your new face,
I am fascinated, almost as though it is strange, almost enough that I would feel uneasiness.
Where lie our hearts? Where are we drifting off to? So that our eyes do not become lost.
Even though we were so close together,
We can't even get a word across between our increasing distances.
Even though we were so close together, the twilight has a different color now.
Please, give us a quiet sleep under the moon light, if it is the last thing possible.
...
Ah...Gundam Seed songs really match my mood right now...and always will.
I won't say anything, but this song will....but ah! I can't help myself to cry a little, since I failed to know what happened to her & stuffs. Probably I'm not patient enough to endure this, which put me in the brink of losing someone that really trusted me, and hoping us to be together till last...
But still, it's a part of life which I regret, but can't be in the state for too long, since the journey is still far away, and I need to get up on my feet and continue.
As for her, I hope for the same I wish before...
The "gypsy" will continue his journey alone again, just like he always do...
Current Song: Annani Isshodattanoni by See-Saw
Lyrics from the current song I'm listening...
anna ni issho datta no ni
yuugure wa mou chigau iro
arifureta yasashisa wa kimi wo toozakeru dake
tsumetaku kirisuteta kokoro wa samayou bakari
sonna kakkowarusa ga ikiru to iu koto nara
samuzora no shita me wo tojite iyou
anna ni issho datta no ni
kotoba hitotsu tooranai kasoku shiteiku senaka ni ima wa
anna ni issho datta no ni yuugure wa mou chigau iro
semete kono tsukiakari no shita de
shizuka na nemuri wo
unmei to umaku tsukiatte iku nara kitto
kanashii toka sabishii nante itte rarenai
nando mo tsunagatta kotoba wo muryoku ni shite mo
taikutsu na yoru wo tsubushitainda ne
anna ni issho datta no ni
fuzoroi na futari ni ima tadoritsukeru basho nado nainda
anna ni issho datta no ni
hajimete au yokogao ni fushigi na kurai ni miserareteru tomadou kurai ni
kokoro wa doko ni iru? doko ni fukarete iru? sono hitomi ga mayowanu you ni
anna ni issho datta no ni
kotoba hitotsu tooranai ugoki hajimeta kimi no jounetsu
anna ni issho datta no ni
yuugure wa mou chigau iro semete kono tsukiakari no shita de shizuka na nemuri wo
Translation...
We were so close together,
but the twilight has a different color now.
The abundance of kindness only keeps a distance between us.
Our coldly ignored hearts are wandering in the midst.
If this awkwardness is what it's like to live,
we shall close our eyes under the cold sky.
Even though we were so close together,
We can't even get a word across between our increasing distances.
Even though we were so close together, the twilight has a different color now.
Please, give us a quiet sleep under the moon light, if it is the last thing possible.
If you are going to cope with fate,
you can't go on saying you are sad or lonely.
Even if it means to break the links of words we have made together,
you would still want to say goodbye to the dull nights.
Even though they were so close together,
the unmatched couple have no place they can reach.
Even though we were so close together, in a glimpse of your new face,
I am fascinated, almost as though it is strange, almost enough that I would feel uneasiness.
Where lie our hearts? Where are we drifting off to? So that our eyes do not become lost.
Even though we were so close together,
We can't even get a word across between our increasing distances.
Even though we were so close together, the twilight has a different color now.
Please, give us a quiet sleep under the moon light, if it is the last thing possible.
...
Ah...Gundam Seed songs really match my mood right now...and always will.
I won't say anything, but this song will....but ah! I can't help myself to cry a little, since I failed to know what happened to her & stuffs. Probably I'm not patient enough to endure this, which put me in the brink of losing someone that really trusted me, and hoping us to be together till last...
But still, it's a part of life which I regret, but can't be in the state for too long, since the journey is still far away, and I need to get up on my feet and continue.
As for her, I hope for the same I wish before...
The "gypsy" will continue his journey alone again, just like he always do...
We were so close together // End of a chapter
Emotion/s: A little frustrated, regret but collected
Current Song: Annani Isshodattanoni by See-Saw
Anyway, I wanted to make this post as short as possible since I'm getting sleepy....
She read it at last, with a result from 2 outcomes, and the hard one came out. I managed to get something else; I was being contacted by a mystery phone number...which I guess was hers. But really, I asked her whose number she's using, but she didn't answer.
She told me that I didn't understand her situation.....NOT!
A lot of the facts have been written on the former posts, so I won't put 'em here.
All I can put here is that she'll hate me as long as she lives. (Me: Oh really..?) But....ah, well...I hope she'll understand one day. It's not that I don't understand her situation, but as a boyfriend I felt so useless...
-CherryLia- , I understand if you hated me so much. But I'm certainly not pleased when you told me that all I say before is true and I always win the situation....but really, did you know my real feelings? Did you forget that I'm human too,built by flesh and blood and a lot of sins? I laughed inside my messages for a cause; I wanted our discussion to be serious, but light, and also to calm things out...
But really, I'm telling you, my tears were all dried out. I can only scream in pain...inside my heart. I forgive you even if you won't forgive me. I'm sorry my dear, really sorry...If only we can meet up someday and talk about this matter in peace....but alas! You don't want to. What else can I say but to respect your view on this awful matter...
We were so close together...just like the title of the song I'm listening....sad.
...
...I hope one day we can be friends again. Wishing you & your family the best always. =)
Current Song: Annani Isshodattanoni by See-Saw
Anyway, I wanted to make this post as short as possible since I'm getting sleepy....
She read it at last, with a result from 2 outcomes, and the hard one came out. I managed to get something else; I was being contacted by a mystery phone number...which I guess was hers. But really, I asked her whose number she's using, but she didn't answer.
She told me that I didn't understand her situation.....NOT!
A lot of the facts have been written on the former posts, so I won't put 'em here.
All I can put here is that she'll hate me as long as she lives. (Me: Oh really..?) But....ah, well...I hope she'll understand one day. It's not that I don't understand her situation, but as a boyfriend I felt so useless...
-CherryLia- , I understand if you hated me so much. But I'm certainly not pleased when you told me that all I say before is true and I always win the situation....but really, did you know my real feelings? Did you forget that I'm human too,built by flesh and blood and a lot of sins? I laughed inside my messages for a cause; I wanted our discussion to be serious, but light, and also to calm things out...
But really, I'm telling you, my tears were all dried out. I can only scream in pain...inside my heart. I forgive you even if you won't forgive me. I'm sorry my dear, really sorry...If only we can meet up someday and talk about this matter in peace....but alas! You don't want to. What else can I say but to respect your view on this awful matter...
We were so close together...just like the title of the song I'm listening....sad.
...
...I hope one day we can be friends again. Wishing you & your family the best always. =)
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Incoming: ComiWorld 2007
Emotion/s: Smiling a little....since this weekend got ComiWorld event. ^^
Current Song: All I Wanted by Michelle Branch
Ah...I can't wait for this weekend. Comiworld 2007 @ Cineleisure Damansara 18th-20th August, and I'm gonna go for the weekends!
Ah...what else can I say here?
Nah....nothing....
...and as for Za, since you've been quite busy and I can't online till late...all I can say here is just for you to take care, have a good amount of rest and don't push yourself too hard. Smile always! =)
Current Song: All I Wanted by Michelle Branch
Ah...I can't wait for this weekend. Comiworld 2007 @ Cineleisure Damansara 18th-20th August, and I'm gonna go for the weekends!
Ah...what else can I say here?
Nah....nothing....
...and as for Za, since you've been quite busy and I can't online till late...all I can say here is just for you to take care, have a good amount of rest and don't push yourself too hard. Smile always! =)
Saturday, August 11, 2007
Against the limit...
Emotion/s: . . . a lil' pressure, stern and nothing but that.
Current Song: Killing My Love by Leslie Parrish
I'd really like to say this for a long time, but you're not always online, so guess that I have to put 'em here...
When you read this, dear -CherryLia-, means that our relationship is over.
Firstly, I would like to say that I'm sorry, really sorry because we have to end it like this. We have to end this relationship, and I really mean it this time. I can't take it anymore since we've lost contact for more than 2 months, and almost no satisfying answers I could get from you. Honestly saying, you've made a single me, becoming more single, like we're almost didn't know each other at all...
You told me that you have your own handphone, but so lazy to buy and register your number. I don't understand why must you become lazy, and it REALLY sounds like you're lazy to talk to me...and you even put my number inside your dad's. What's that supposed to mean?
Have you ever care of picking up a phone and give me a ring or two, at least for around 5 minutes, or once a week when you're busy? Have you ever think of sending me emails, asking me about how am I doing, am I in a healthy state or not? Have you ever? Did you know that I've been struggling with heavy stomachaches half-dead, because of food poisoning?
...and the answer is no...yes, for the months before, and THOSE don't count.
And not to be forgotten; We've been playing AuditionSEA since we last met, and you realized that there's a PM system, so why can't you PM me everytime you visit? You know I was busy, and yes, I've been playing Granado Espada and busy with my assignments and stuffs. Was it hard? Must I'm being the only one who kept PMing you, while I haven't get any replies from you?
...and oh yes, you're love Mo Siang more than me, was it? I don't care if you like to play that, it's your interest, but at least email me if you're busy.
Ah...so the conclusion is supposed to be like this:
Call >>> SMS >>> email >>> PM
...and the >>> means that another step to choose if the former step/s can't be used...
...but instead I got almost NOTHING...
...and I don't like having a girlfriend that won't tell me her name,and keeping a lot of secrets.
I have a feeling of being a part-time lover, or to easy-calling; Spare-Part.
...but even if you don't, you're just lazy. =)
During my last, deleted post about when I ask for a break-up through a lyric, you complained last time that your mother had a broken leg, and you need to take care of her. You felt really pissed off by my post. Why don't you tell me earlier about that? At least SMS me if you can't be online, so that I know you can't.
....and I'd like to POUR 'em all HERE!
Well, since we 1st started off as a couple on 15th February 2007, you left me for a month after we declared. Then after that, you asked me whether I missed you. Then say sorry because you're too preoccupied with another online game.
Frankly saying, I don't like to push any longer about this post. Enough of all these thesis-long on about my feelings inside this very post, and I haven't put here about the times you swear at me.
But nah....I don't want to talk about that.
Sorry, but really, I can't take it anymore. I felt my heart tortured by what you've done. Love is about give and take. I gave, you took, and in return I recieved almost nothing from you...
Sorry again for being harsh, I'd like to talk about this nicely and cool, but I'm in pressure and I'm so feeling to post this.
From the 1st time, I don't have any feelings for you, until I managed to built it little by little, around 10% then you shattered it....and until now I can't find a way to repair back, and I gave up.
...
I hope we can still be friends and still chat when we have time. You can go on with your work without any disturbance from me anymore. No need to call me unless it's for leisure...just like friends.
I can't blame, since my mom told me that she didn't like me being with you, and I can't fight that.
Good luck my friend, hope you'll get someone better than me. Wish your family well always. =)
Current Song: Killing My Love by Leslie Parrish
I'd really like to say this for a long time, but you're not always online, so guess that I have to put 'em here...
When you read this, dear -CherryLia-, means that our relationship is over.
Firstly, I would like to say that I'm sorry, really sorry because we have to end it like this. We have to end this relationship, and I really mean it this time. I can't take it anymore since we've lost contact for more than 2 months, and almost no satisfying answers I could get from you. Honestly saying, you've made a single me, becoming more single, like we're almost didn't know each other at all...
You told me that you have your own handphone, but so lazy to buy and register your number. I don't understand why must you become lazy, and it REALLY sounds like you're lazy to talk to me...and you even put my number inside your dad's. What's that supposed to mean?
Have you ever care of picking up a phone and give me a ring or two, at least for around 5 minutes, or once a week when you're busy? Have you ever think of sending me emails, asking me about how am I doing, am I in a healthy state or not? Have you ever? Did you know that I've been struggling with heavy stomachaches half-dead, because of food poisoning?
...and the answer is no...yes, for the months before, and THOSE don't count.
And not to be forgotten; We've been playing AuditionSEA since we last met, and you realized that there's a PM system, so why can't you PM me everytime you visit? You know I was busy, and yes, I've been playing Granado Espada and busy with my assignments and stuffs. Was it hard? Must I'm being the only one who kept PMing you, while I haven't get any replies from you?
...and oh yes, you're love Mo Siang more than me, was it? I don't care if you like to play that, it's your interest, but at least email me if you're busy.
Ah...so the conclusion is supposed to be like this:
Call >>> SMS >>> email >>> PM
...and the >>> means that another step to choose if the former step/s can't be used...
...but instead I got almost NOTHING...
...and I don't like having a girlfriend that won't tell me her name,and keeping a lot of secrets.
I have a feeling of being a part-time lover, or to easy-calling; Spare-Part.
...but even if you don't, you're just lazy. =)
During my last, deleted post about when I ask for a break-up through a lyric, you complained last time that your mother had a broken leg, and you need to take care of her. You felt really pissed off by my post. Why don't you tell me earlier about that? At least SMS me if you can't be online, so that I know you can't.
....and I'd like to POUR 'em all HERE!
Well, since we 1st started off as a couple on 15th February 2007, you left me for a month after we declared. Then after that, you asked me whether I missed you. Then say sorry because you're too preoccupied with another online game.
Frankly saying, I don't like to push any longer about this post. Enough of all these thesis-long on about my feelings inside this very post, and I haven't put here about the times you swear at me.
But nah....I don't want to talk about that.
Sorry, but really, I can't take it anymore. I felt my heart tortured by what you've done. Love is about give and take. I gave, you took, and in return I recieved almost nothing from you...
Sorry again for being harsh, I'd like to talk about this nicely and cool, but I'm in pressure and I'm so feeling to post this.
From the 1st time, I don't have any feelings for you, until I managed to built it little by little, around 10% then you shattered it....and until now I can't find a way to repair back, and I gave up.
...
I hope we can still be friends and still chat when we have time. You can go on with your work without any disturbance from me anymore. No need to call me unless it's for leisure...just like friends.
I can't blame, since my mom told me that she didn't like me being with you, and I can't fight that.
Good luck my friend, hope you'll get someone better than me. Wish your family well always. =)
Thursday, August 09, 2007
Aah...randoming with dice
Emotion/s: Normal....missing some people.
Current song: Andalusian Rhapsody by SoundTeMP
You are the rare, the overlooked, yet incredibly useful dodecahedron: the d12. You are a creative, romantic soul. You often act without thinking, but make up for your lack of plans with plenty of heart. You easily solve problems that stump others, but your answers tend to put you into even deeper trouble. You write long, detailed backgrounds for all your characters, and are most likely to dress up as one or get involved in cos-play. You can be silly at times and are easily distracted by your own day dreams, but are at the end of the day you're someone who can be depended on.
Ah....here I am at the GamerSphere cyber cafe with my pack near my apartment. Somehow I like the cyber cafe for the enviroment; cool & calm. But alas! This premise doesn't have either Granado Espada nor AuditionSEA! Darn....T-T
And ah...I miss having a nice conversation with my dear friend itsDEJAvu. It's been so long since our last chat. Hope that she did well.
...and as for my dear -CherryLia- , I don't have anything else to say. Just take care & hope you're well always. Miss you. <3
...
...and for the quiz, let's just say that over 80% of the facts are true, and some others, I'm not so sure.
Current song: Andalusian Rhapsody by SoundTeMP
You are the rare, the overlooked, yet incredibly useful dodecahedron: the d12. You are a creative, romantic soul. You often act without thinking, but make up for your lack of plans with plenty of heart. You easily solve problems that stump others, but your answers tend to put you into even deeper trouble. You write long, detailed backgrounds for all your characters, and are most likely to dress up as one or get involved in cos-play. You can be silly at times and are easily distracted by your own day dreams, but are at the end of the day you're someone who can be depended on.
Ah....here I am at the GamerSphere cyber cafe with my pack near my apartment. Somehow I like the cyber cafe for the enviroment; cool & calm. But alas! This premise doesn't have either Granado Espada nor AuditionSEA! Darn....T-T
And ah...I miss having a nice conversation with my dear friend itsDEJAvu. It's been so long since our last chat. Hope that she did well.
...and as for my dear -CherryLia- , I don't have anything else to say. Just take care & hope you're well always. Miss you. <3
...
...and for the quiz, let's just say that over 80% of the facts are true, and some others, I'm not so sure.
Tuesday, August 07, 2007
Borrow, not steal...
Emotion/s: A little blurry...missing friends and that someone
Current Song : You Were Meant For Me by Jewel
Yesterday, I was stupid. Stealing (I mean...I borrow, really, not really steal. Trust me. ><") a mop from a neighbor in the apartment, just to mop my so-called house (more like a battlefield). While I was mopping, several minutes later, I saw the neighbor walking around the 14th floor looking for the mop she hung outside her home. I was wondering why I steal while I can just simply ask and borrow....
I know I'm sort of a kleptomaniac, but I'm not that bad, I think...
Anyway, I thought of putting back the mop last night around 3-4 am but I forgot. I put it in front of the neighbor's house after I woke up around 9 am instead. Fortunately, the neighbor didn't wake up yet. ^^
Ah...one night here in my apartment just ain't enough for me...boredom inside my family's house could kill me...
I missed my darling.... <3
Current Song : You Were Meant For Me by Jewel
Yesterday, I was stupid. Stealing (I mean...I borrow, really, not really steal. Trust me. ><") a mop from a neighbor in the apartment, just to mop my so-called house (more like a battlefield). While I was mopping, several minutes later, I saw the neighbor walking around the 14th floor looking for the mop she hung outside her home. I was wondering why I steal while I can just simply ask and borrow....
I know I'm sort of a kleptomaniac, but I'm not that bad, I think...
Anyway, I thought of putting back the mop last night around 3-4 am but I forgot. I put it in front of the neighbor's house after I woke up around 9 am instead. Fortunately, the neighbor didn't wake up yet. ^^
Ah...one night here in my apartment just ain't enough for me...boredom inside my family's house could kill me...
I missed my darling.... <3
Ah...I'm a WHAT??
You're Lolita!
by Vladimir Nabokov
Considered by most to be depraved and immoral, you are obsessed with
sex. What really tantalizes you is that which deviates from societal standards in every
way, though you admit that this probably isn't the best and you're not sure what causes
this desire. Nonetheless, you've done some pretty nefarious things in your life, and
probably gotten caught for them. The names have been changed, but the problems are real.
Please stay away from children.
Take the Book Quiz
at the Blue Pyramid.
Saturday, August 04, 2007
Blur...randoming...
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
Random thoughts (3)
Emotion/s : Normal (you call that an emotion? Hahaha...)
Current Song : Back on the Rocks by Hiyama Nobuyuki
Randoming....I dunno why, but I have a tendency of irritate people's feelings and provoking them. Haha...but really, I'm trying to stop that, or at least using that as a weapon when needed.
And to Izumi Ishtar....gomenasai for breaking your gun. ><" I'll pay for that on Comiworld 2007.
As for the so-called 1 month of holiday, I was told by the lecturer that we're gonna have 3 weeks of it, not a month. Darn wrong info, but it's okay for me anyway. I need to keep in touch with my pc there, since here at my hometown don't have Granado Espada. ^^
Oh yeah, mentioned about GE, my faction started to make a hit on the server Pachelbel; we're the first faction that turned the towns crazy by making a lot of funny poses anywhere, and that included hugging the NPCs till the other players can't access them properly. (me: Muahaha XD)
And for my dear -CherryLia- nice to hear that you get your job at the former workplace, the hotel. Take care and hope that we can meet again someday. Love you so much...<33
Current Song : Back on the Rocks by Hiyama Nobuyuki
Randoming....I dunno why, but I have a tendency of irritate people's feelings and provoking them. Haha...but really, I'm trying to stop that, or at least using that as a weapon when needed.
And to Izumi Ishtar....gomenasai for breaking your gun. ><" I'll pay for that on Comiworld 2007.
As for the so-called 1 month of holiday, I was told by the lecturer that we're gonna have 3 weeks of it, not a month. Darn wrong info, but it's okay for me anyway. I need to keep in touch with my pc there, since here at my hometown don't have Granado Espada. ^^
Oh yeah, mentioned about GE, my faction started to make a hit on the server Pachelbel; we're the first faction that turned the towns crazy by making a lot of funny poses anywhere, and that included hugging the NPCs till the other players can't access them properly. (me: Muahaha XD)
And for my dear -CherryLia- nice to hear that you get your job at the former workplace, the hotel. Take care and hope that we can meet again someday. Love you so much...<33
