Save Green / &I'm Green; Fill me in

Saturday, August 11, 2007

Against the limit...

Emotion/s: . . . a lil' pressure, stern and nothing but that.

Current Song: Killing My Love by Leslie Parrish

I'd really like to say this for a long time, but you're not always online, so guess that I have to put 'em here...

When you read this, dear -CherryLia-, means that our relationship is over.

Firstly, I would like to say that I'm sorry, really sorry because we have to end it like this. We have to end this relationship, and I really mean it this time. I can't take it anymore since we've lost contact for more than 2 months, and almost no satisfying answers I could get from you. Honestly saying, you've made a single me, becoming more single, like we're almost didn't know each other at all...

You told me that you have your own handphone, but so lazy to buy and register your number. I don't understand why must you become lazy, and it REALLY sounds like you're lazy to talk to me...and you even put my number inside your dad's. What's that supposed to mean?

Have you ever care of picking up a phone and give me a ring or two, at least for around 5 minutes, or once a week when you're busy? Have you ever think of sending me emails, asking me about how am I doing, am I in a healthy state or not? Have you ever? Did you know that I've been struggling with heavy stomachaches half-dead, because of food poisoning?

...and the answer is no...yes, for the months before, and THOSE don't count.

And not to be forgotten; We've been playing AuditionSEA since we last met, and you realized that there's a PM system, so why can't you PM me everytime you visit? You know I was busy, and yes, I've been playing Granado Espada and busy with my assignments and stuffs. Was it hard? Must I'm being the only one who kept PMing you, while I haven't get any replies from you?

...and oh yes, you're love Mo Siang more than me, was it? I don't care if you like to play that, it's your interest, but at least email me if you're busy.

Ah...so the conclusion is supposed to be like this:

Call >>> SMS >>> email >>> PM

...and the >>> means that another step to choose if the former step/s can't be used...

...but instead I got almost NOTHING...

...and I don't like having a girlfriend that won't tell me her name,and keeping a lot of secrets.

I have a feeling of being a part-time lover, or to easy-calling; Spare-Part.

...but even if you don't, you're just lazy. =)

During my last, deleted post about when I ask for a break-up through a lyric, you complained last time that your mother had a broken leg, and you need to take care of her. You felt really pissed off by my post. Why don't you tell me earlier about that? At least SMS me if you can't be online, so that I know you can't.

....and I'd like to POUR 'em all HERE!

Well, since we 1st started off as a couple on 15th February 2007, you left me for a month after we declared. Then after that, you asked me whether I missed you. Then say sorry because you're too preoccupied with another online game.

Frankly saying, I don't like to push any longer about this post. Enough of all these thesis-long on about my feelings inside this very post, and I haven't put here about the times you swear at me.
But nah....I don't want to talk about that.

Sorry, but really, I can't take it anymore. I felt my heart tortured by what you've done. Love is about give and take. I gave, you took, and in return I recieved almost nothing from you...

Sorry again for being harsh, I'd like to talk about this nicely and cool, but I'm in pressure and I'm so feeling to post this.

From the 1st time, I don't have any feelings for you, until I managed to built it little by little, around 10% then you shattered it....and until now I can't find a way to repair back, and I gave up.

...

I hope we can still be friends and still chat when we have time. You can go on with your work without any disturbance from me anymore. No need to call me unless it's for leisure...just like friends.

I can't blame, since my mom told me that she didn't like me being with you, and I can't fight that.

Good luck my friend, hope you'll get someone better than me. Wish your family well always. =)

♠/MY Green Personalities

Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)

♣/ The Green Hobbies

Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.