Save Green / &I'm Green; Fill me in

Sunday, November 04, 2007

Same old pleadings // I'm tension

Emotion/s: A lil bit of pressure, tension...

Current Song: Nobody's Listening by Linkin Park

3-4 weeks before finals. Need to pass up assignments....

Went back home, like always; being nagged, things went wrong for me, people kept bringing up the bad old stuffs, ancient remarks that acted like a knife that bleeds the same old wound again and again...

...and how I hate things like that. And yes, like always, what can I do is just endure the stuffs.

...and it seemed to be endless, so far. I wonder how far can I hold such burden any longer.

...and how the unwanted piles keep bashing up my thoughts until I forgot to settle up important stuffs like registering my diploma subjects till I got myself paid 25 bucks as the late-payment penalty.

..I don't care. All I wanted is to finish up the darn diploma and get the hell outta here. Get myself a job and give some parts of the salaries to my parents...

...and to my brother, if you want me to pay you "debts" and stuffs #!@*% later when I have mine I'll pay!!! If you wanted back your dvd-writer back go ahead! Later when I bring back my CPU I'll give you back. You kept asking me to pay your *&@%#$ debts and bringing 'em up over and over again....

I'M SO DAMN SICK OF IT YOU KNOW!!!! YOU KEPT TELLING YOURSELF THAT YOU WORKED AND STARTED TO ACT SCROOGE I HATE THAT AND THE OTHERS TOO! YOU GAVE PEOPLE STUFFS AND KEEP ASKING BACK!

...as for my family, PLEASE LET ME DO MY THINGS!! CAN YOU PLEASE OPEN UP YOUR MINDS AND REALIZE THAT I'M NOT A BABY ANYMORE? I'M A GROWN UP SON THAT CAN ACTUALLY GET MARRIED AND HAVE A JOB? SO WHY KEEP ME LIKE A PRISONER INSIDE MY OWN HOME? I'M A MAN AND I'M NOT SOME VIRGIN THAT NEEDS TO BE LOCKED UP WAITING TO GET MARRIED BY SOME RANDOM DUDE OUT THERE??!!! STOP GIVING ME UNREASONABLE, ILLOGICAL REMARKS. THEY'RE HURTING MY PROGRESS AND MISSION YOU KNOW....PLEASE...I CAN'T PLEASE ALL OF YOU AT THE SAME TIME. I KNOW BEING AN ELDEST OF THREE IS A HUGE RESPONSIBILITY BUT PLEASE GIVE ME SOME SPACE. PLEASE UNDERSTAND MY PROBLEMS. ALL I NEED IS A SOFT TOUCH AND CARE FROM A FAMILY, NOT A WEEKLY NAGGING AND YELLING EVERY TIME I REACH HOME!

...okay, enough of my rantings. I'm so pressured and feeling like blowing myself out. Hopefully the patience will be more than last. Sorry, but I so need to release some of them here.

♠/MY Green Personalities

Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)

♣/ The Green Hobbies

Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.