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Sunday, February 17, 2008

Looting / A matter of heart

Emotion/s: Normal, satisfaction, affection, depression....and a smile. =)

Current Song:All I Wanted by Michelle Branch

Woohoo! Just got back from visiting KLCC with my close friend. There's a Magic; The Gathering Pro Tour held there. But what I did there wasn't to compete, but instead I went looting all the cards I found on empty tables. My bro & my best friend told us that these cards can be taken away. Well, better for us to "loot" those in front of those people & contestants rather than put to waste, ended up inside the recycle bin. The loot was like estimated around hundreds of ringgit. XD We saw a guy picking up some cards secretly while me & my friend said "What the heck?". So what I did was unzip my bags and put those inside in front of the people. Being foolhardy is a worthwhile, after all...

....and I almost bought rare, powerful cards for almost $100. Thank goodness I realized the price of each cards before I bought 'em... later then I bought nothing.

...and some banquet guy asked us to put that card back. I told him that those cards are free but since he won't listen, I just walked out unnoticed before my friend, since he busy doing photoshoot with his Nikon S240 (I think that's the brand). Later after minutes we met outside the hall and head straight to Burger King nearby. Then after that, we had drinks and passing him those cards before we split.

p/s: Chrissy, I'm sorry for being slow. Yes I understand you hated that but you must know that I hate being slow too, not to mention that I have some problems concerning my mental. I'm trying my best here and do all I can to help and treat you all I can. But after what you've told me just now...

... I understand the times you ignored me and I forced myself to think of something else that would rather make my heart feeling better than telling myself that what already I've been thinking. It'll clearly make me like thrashing things up since I can't really contain my other side for long. But well, I beg God for his mercy and help...

...I've told you before that if you're like unsure of things, stop. Think before you make your decision. After making clearance of your decision, then go for it and never look back. If you really love someone, means that you're ready to help, trusting him and do anything for him as well as trying to understand him. But then if your heart was like still attached to somebody else, like your ex, and you found out that you're with someone else right now, why don't you just fight that feeling and just think about your current boyfriend and family... and friends?

It's all inside your heart, Chrissy, and your mind too. You know the consequences but still you fell for it. I'm feeling really upset, sad, torn, broken.... but still I believe that one day that you'll soon recover from all these craps! But like I said just now.... it's all in your heart. You're no longer a lil girl, but you're a woman now, have a capability to think. Search guidance. I know that you can do it. You have your parents, your friends, you got Padil, you got Me...

...you have GOD on your side...

...and sorry for talking harshly to you inside this post. I'm so sorry... but I just want you to realize that ignoring me for that reason is totally turning me off, and not to mention making my heart chipped out bit by bit.

Honestly Chrissy, I still love you, and I'm defending that feeling inside my heart and won't let anything corrupt it, and I hope that you do so like me, defending. As God tested us if we believe in Him and pray for guidance and help, our love should be stronger. But sooner or later we'll part because God said so. He knows better than we think so what we all could do is to accept it and continue our lives. We're not permanent beings anyway, and neither for the world and matters within it.

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♠/MY Green Personalities

Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)

♣/ The Green Hobbies

Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.