Save Green / &I'm Green; Fill me in

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Of last night's confession

Emotion/s: Tired, Sleepy...

Current Song: Stop Stop Stop by Nu Virgos

No I didn't trust him
But he rushed me to feel
Tried me mesmerize to me
With his all sex appeal

Told me everything
That I was longing to hear
Shine and handsome
My souvenir

And then all of sudden
I have fallen in love
He would put me down
But I’d still place him above

Tired of searching for the love
That still lives in him
Given my everything
Like a souvenir

* Given up my heart
In the name of the memory
Fallen down like rain
He could feel every drop
Now I know I have
Have the courage to tell him
Tell him to stop!stop!stop!

[Repeat *]

I’ve become invisible
I melt away at night
Dreams for once so colorful
Become black and white

Loving once so wonderful
Is no longer here
So I’ll keep this feeling
Like a souvenir

[Repeat * , *]

[Repeat * , *]

Stop! Stop! Stop!

Stop! Stop! Stop!

....

Last night feels like, I don't know....

I told her to stop do anything that actually against her will, even though things done half-heartedly. The result of the several weeks inside the virtual relationship has brought us into the moment of truth...

... and I wondered why you still doing this to me while I already knew it?

I was a little upset, still....but seriously, inside her uncertainty there's still a glimmer of hope for her. Well, not that I'm angry with what she did to me all this while, only that I don't want her to do things that she's not supposed inside her current situation right now. =( Can't we just be honest? Truth hurts, yes, but to lie is even more hurt by the end...

I've no denial that I still have feelings for her, even though I have to face it that things aren't like what it used to be. Well, serves me right for crying out loud, for confessing too early before the time. But I couldn't help myself that time.

... or was it Cupid misfired the arrow and hit the wrong person instead? (bad pun, sorry...)

But what happened, happened. Every thing happened for a reason... God, please help us calm down our heart and feelings...

I honestly don't want to lose her, be it as a lover or a good friend, for the least. I've like....

...never feels like she's faking things out. If not, I would've been really sad and broken earlier. But instead, I felt normal, a lil bit happier than the days before. But what happened last night makes me feel pity of her. To me, even though IF she's faking it, she wouldn't be so caring, wasn't that right? But then, I couldn't make myself mad & angry. maybe because too much heartbreaks I've encountered before makes me feeling fine, even though a lil upset and sad are undeniable feelings.

I'll post the rest of the topic later... gotta be hurry since I got presentation in an hour. >.<

♠/MY Green Personalities

Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)

♣/ The Green Hobbies

Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.