Save Green / &I'm Green; Fill me in

Friday, February 29, 2008

Of my loved one...

Emotion/s: Missed that someone...

Current Song: My Valentine by Martina McBride

Christine... I've always wanted to post this. Made this blog private too so then only some people may read on what has been kept inside my heart, including you, my dear...

Since I met you back then on 25th February (forgot the real date, sorry), things have changed for me, no, us. We met at the Paramount server 1 with our friends. Things went merry as we met, and that time was having group dancing. While we were dancing we talked, dance, laughed and had fun... later then both of us started to exchange our emails and blogs.

That's when our life started to change...

Soon after that, we chat in MSN and breaks the ice. At first we talked on general things, what happened around, stuffs...

...but then one day, several days after we exchanged emails, we started to talk private. Things becoming more intimate as we started to talk about our hopes, then desires...

...until then, we started to talk more deeply; it's about our feelings, hearts.

...soon after that, we started to feel something else. I was like... my heart started to like her. I was in some kind of ecstacy when coming to talk with her. My heart was like missed her, and always waiting for us to chat again. From then we started to exchange our phone numbers.

I fell in love with her, and it's you, my beloved Christine.

I was like don't know why but my heart hungers for her presence, be it in MSN or phone. And somehow she feels the same...

One night, I confessed to her. She said no to me that time, and I was sad, although not fully, but then I still feel the pain. But later then she told me that a part of her likes me. I took that as a chance not to look back...

Soon after weeks, we became couples. We decided to give it a try. But then as time went by we became closer. As couples we had fights, but then, soon after those, we became closer without really noticing. I loved her so much. Yes, both of us got flaws but then we decided to take on things slowly and patiently...

We had times where our hearts being in doubt of things, but for me it's all just a test from God.

...and it's our responsibility on defending it. Yes, we know what happened if we continue our forbidden relationship but we don't care. We wanted to treasure and enjoy our relationship as long as we can. Hopefully, with our efforts and prayers, God will give ourselves a chance.

Christine, sorry for being slow and stuffs, and sorry for making you mad because of my blurriness and make you feel uneasy at times. But honestly saying that my heart for you is true, and I'm not gonna give that to someone else. I was thinking to manage our relationship as good as we can, and to be patient due to our side being handicapped by parental issues.

But then, as a man I'm doing my best and all I can for this relationship. If our time came for us to be separated, I hope that we both won't feel remorse. Take it as one of our most memorable chapter of our lives, and stay as friends. But seriously, I wanted to preserve our relationship. If can, I don't want to lose you, same as you don't want to lose me.

Christine, I missed you and I care about you. If only we can always meet without any major obstacles...

I want you to know that I always thinking of you, and sorry if I replay late nowadays. I'm really busy with my schedules. Maybe for now I'm not really that busy, but the days will come.

I love you, Christine... and always will. <33

♠/MY Green Personalities

Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)

♣/ The Green Hobbies

Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.