Save Green / &I'm Green; Fill me in

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Of last night and today's end

Emotion/s: A lil bit of everything; Satisfaction, a lil free...not to forget, remorse and a lil sad.

Current Song: How You Remind Me by Nickelback

Woohoo! At last, a great diploma burden has been kinda lifted... wait... still got that darn maths exam... and Java Programming too. =.=;;

..but nevermind. The maths quiz has been postponed till Monday next week. Still got time to study lol. Hmm.... what else? Tomorrow is holiday, the next day will be my birthday. Well... thinking of... aaaaahhhh.... I'll put up a special birthday post later.

To: whom which is concerned...

What happened last night was a total disaster. I've let myself go random like that till I hurt one of the most important people in my life. Well, too high... and I was like... don't really know how to express properly. My own mistake of turning thing like that, which is the worst ever in history.

Nevermind if you say that I'm an ignorant person or whatsoever, because I only ignore things which I think need to be ignored. Don't ever say that I ignore you because I never wanna do that intentionally, and I got lotsa other priorities to be done and need to arrange the schedule, and I fit in some times for you.

What else? Fake? I always wanted to be true to myself, and from what I put inside that tag thing, I put it all true. Yes, I've revealed unwanted things and stuffs, but let that be history, and I always wanted to change myself (just in case if you refer to the tag thing). Old habits die hard.

Ok la, I admitted my fault for still haven't really understand the situation. No, I understand, but... maybe it's because of I couldn't really control myself at times, so I can be kinda emo la. Sorry about that.

Annoying people? I did annoy some but mostly it's just unintentionally. That's why, if can I would just shut up. But then, I just hate it when you say that I'm ignoring you while I'm not. I had hard times processing words and sentences these days my mind all jumbled up with stuffs. And sometimes I'm deaf. Too much blasting music to my ears. So please be patient if you need to repeat a question for the 2nd time.

You make me sound like a jerk. I am, at times. But it's just because of being high and stress.

Anyway, both of us got flaws right? Haihz.... I don't know the annoyance is so powerful.

... and please, how many times I told you not to use that F-word against me? Yes, I can be stupid sometimes because of too much information and being a lil blurry. I'm also stressed out as you do. So please... all I wanna do is just do avoid fights.

I don't know what else to be said. I know that you're a lot better than me, and I'm trying to be the best as I can for you, you know that right? Because of you I'm trying to be a better person since I'm not that normal, and all I do is learn, and I learn by the hard way.

Anyway, 'nuff said. I rather have a face-to-face talk with you so we can settle over better.

Just wanna say that I'm really sorry and I miss talking to you.

♠/MY Green Personalities

Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)

♣/ The Green Hobbies

Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.