Save Green / &I'm Green; Fill me in

Sunday, May 18, 2008

Extreme pessimistic mode

Emotion/s: Sad, broken, torn, too late for everything, gave up...

Current Song: A Little Pain by Olivia (Nana 1st ED Theme)

I did my mistake... I've made my decision, but it's all too late, just like always.

I lose her as my girl, and for goodness sake, I have to block N as well. Better be friends, but nah.... better just forget me instead. Nobody wanted to have a pessimistic liar as a boyfriend anyway. Far worse on becoming some child's father.

Anyway, I was about to restore things back days before but she gave up already, and I'm not the one who like to force people to love me. The moral is don't ever trust 100% on people, especially me. Easy. I'm a thief and a liar. Hahaha!

Looks like I have to put away my feelings for her inside a jar and hide it somewhere till it gets dusty. If she wanted me back, looks like I need to rummage the whole place back, or maybe I'll remember where I put it back before. Oh well.... all too late.

Now that I'm even scared to face myself, nor these people. I'm ashamed of everything. People did to me once, and I actually can't believe that I did it also. Guess that the cycle will keep on going. To me yes I do trust people, but most mostly till around.... 60%? Trusting myself... 20%.

'nuff said. Extremely passive mode right now.

♠/MY Green Personalities

Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)

♣/ The Green Hobbies

Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.