Save Green / &I'm Green; Fill me in

Monday, May 19, 2008

Uh... what the heck happened?

Emotion/s: A lil feeling remorse, normal...

Current Song: Crawling by Linkin Park

Hmm.... after a while being a coward and an ass, I realized something (AGAIN!). Okay, since things have been happened, now I'm trying to make myself some resolutions. Lolz...

Anyway, since that I've becoming a total idiot before, now that I missed the old times. I'm trying to restore back the things that are ruined. I don't care whether I can be accepted back or not, I'm still doing it. No point for me to give up. If I could did it before and won her heart, now that I ruined it, it's my responsibility to fix it. If she don't want me back, guess that I will lock my heart permanently (for a long time, I mean) so people out there help me!!

Words, words and words again... now that I remember; Once before I was really down years ago, and I like wished that if I ever not thinking about anything again there would be no worries just me seeing things pass by...

...and feel the consequences. Now that God has granted my wish. Not only being a total ass, but also almost lost my ability to think. Now that I missed my days of being a lil genius (well, at least I could think that time). Now that I felt really comfortable being a pessimist and indulge myself in the pool of foolishness and lie itself.

Oh ya, another of my weakness is that sometimes I would just running away from the problem, and also do things halfway. I scared of reading her blog nowadays. Scared to found out that if she mention about my stupidity again (Well, I am stupid.) :p

Well, yes.... I'm not a person that like to gain back people's trust but it seems living in a human world I need to be human and face things off. I need to become more humane this time, although I'm just hating that.

Hmm... anyway yes, I missed those days when I was trusted, and we really being together (seriously, I had no idea that people trusted me though.). I need to formulate a plan that can actually turn things back to normal, well, at least a lil bit normal.

Now I need to face myself, and try to fix things up. Ganbarimasu!

♠/MY Green Personalities

Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)

♣/ The Green Hobbies

Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.