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Thursday, August 28, 2008

Of exam and down

Emotion/s: A lil down for a moment, normal...

Current Song: Stand My Ground by Within Temptation

Yesterday's been having a resit exam for java programming. Same old questions, but amazingly all of us weren't prepared for it. Notes? Most of them didn't have it within their keep anymore. I had my notes that time, but I couldn't get myself properly ready for it too. College's bad planning, I guess...

We've did our best, so no regrets. Not really our fault anyway (at least for this exam)...

Just now I had a chat with one of my friends, and from what we've talked I started to look back upon myself, and realized...

I never really have a chance to socialize like other people, as in having fun with friends. LOL to my teenage angst (but I'm no teenager). As a human being I have my own jealousy upon others; having a good life, able to socialize and get to know things outside, meeting new people etc. All I'm having for my life now is just like this:

Weekdays: Home >> Out to work >> Go to cc 30% (20% chance on meeting friends) >> Get back home >> Scolded (most of the time) >> Sleep >> Cycle continues...

Weekends: Wake up >> Trapped inside house >> Doing chores even though things are super clean >> Get bored >> Get scolded >> 5% of getting out to town, meeting friends etc >> Get back >> Get scolded >> Same old cycle...

Well, there are chances of me getting out, but most of the time just alone or with family, which kinda irritating most of the time. Anyway, I have to accept the fact that I'm a "princess" locked inside the prison tower of total restriction rather than living inside a heavenly home where parents and children are happy together. Sigh...

But then, I have to realize that there are people out there who shared the same problems like me, or probably worse that mine. Nevermind... to my friends and people out there, you guys should be thankful of your lives. We all have limits on doing everything, guess that the limits I'm having is a lil extraordinary. ~_~ Even going to the office for the sake of doing activities or work there is a problem for me on the weekends. Forbidden for me to go there. Mom said it's all about saving $$ for the normal working days' expenses.

I understand that my family is having a hard time on our financial. But nah... even if the problem is over someday... the restrictions will stay. Just wished that I can get out more often, or maybe live outside my house. So far I have never really neglect my responsibility, just doing my best. I do have faults sometimes, being a lil blur & stupid and all. But I'm just human...

Even mom grew tired on my dad...

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Patience...

...and as for my dear PingGuo, I miss you a lot. Hope you take care and be happy always.

♠/MY Green Personalities

Khair a.k.a Gypsydres
Talks as much as he observes
As emo as his gh3ys.
Hard as rock and twice as sensitive :)

♣/ The Green Hobbies

Anime, manga, games~~
Cosplay~~ (just started)
Writing poems and stuffs
Reading stuffs
Slacking :p
Chatting (I'm talkative XD)
ParaPara Paradise
Initial D arcade (not pro) ^^"

...and the rest you ask yourself.