Friday, November 04, 2011
2 years later.... with a crush!
Emotion/s: Mixed feelings with a hint of happiness... a hint.
Current Song: A Thousand Mile by Vanessa Carlton
2 friggin' years since my last post. Been through some highs and lows and much to be think about. Honestly it's been a shame to see what I've becoming now comparing to my friends who manage to get themselves stable jobs, a good life and some of them even got married and have kids!
But then again it's what they've gained and it's from their efforts. God bless them.
Went back into my former workplace couple of months ago; same new old stuffs. Been there, done that and I'm tired off all the nonsense but nonetheless Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah I managed to maintain my composure so far.
Some said that I'm not like what I used to be; cheerful, bubbly person now I barely talks to some people that I used to be close with. Don't get me wrong. They're still my friends, dear workmates but then again after I've been gone for a couple of years time has changed me, I guess.
So much to be said here but long story cut short:
1. My parents got divorced for almost 1/2 year. Sad story. God's test hat we all need to endure. Me I don't wanna point my fingers to any sides, just doing what needs to be done and do my duty as a son. I'm not really good but I'm doing my best. Things been hard.
Staying with mom and the rest of the siblings. I'm missing my dad so much. Just hope that he's doing good out there.
2. I'm in a band as a keyboardist and lyrics. Band's name is Alien Dork Fuse. All cosplayers, all music lovers, all of different kinds. It'llbe hard at some point but so far things are good. Alhamdulillah. :)
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Well, these days in a way at my current former workplace is, or at least was, quite nice. Having this crush to this particular person God-knows-how-and-why. 5 years of being single and now I'm feeling like an old tub running. Sounds funny but it is. :)
Been a while since I'm having this feeling. Have to bear in mind that it's just another of God's test so I'll just do my best for it, insyaAllah. I've been wondering if she feels the same (OH COME ON SHE'S BEEN HINTING YOU!)
When this happens I've been looking at myself in the mirror and the mirrorscape of my mind, reflecting everything about me and things I've done.
I'm so not in the shape.
....so get yourself back to shape, tiger.
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Been reading some nice reads these day but for now let me share my current reads;
Meg is a story of a U.S Navy deep-sea diver, Jonas Taylor who witnessed a living fossil during a classified research deep under the gorge of Mariana's Trench. He believed what he has seen was in fact a prehistoric sea predator, long thought to be extinct, Megalodon. He went to become a palaeontologist after to to prove its existence.
With helps from some old friends and rivals, they're embark in a mission to study nature's most terrifying killing machine while trying to survive the massacre done by the creature best forgotten (but it came, d'uh).
The story is quite fast-paced, and I'm kinda love this deep-sea horror genre since Kraken. :D
There's so much to be said yet I'm starting to get lazy to write more.
